A Mind Lost

 I haven’t updated the blog in a while.  I simply haven’t been able to get in the mood to post anything.  My father passed away on 29th April in a manner which left me stunned. 

The short version is that it started with him being diagnosed as diabetic and started medication to treat it.  After a week of pain he was admitted to hospital with a suspected reaction to the tablets.  His medication was changed and he was discharged the next day.  Four days later we took him to A&E in the early hours of a Monday morning.  A consultant examined him and his suspicions were aroused resulting in my father being readmitted.  After three days of tests they found primary cancer of the pancreas with secondaries on his lung, liver and spleen.  They also found an abnormality in his throat and a blood clot in his lungs.  His diagnosis by the specialist was for six months at the most, even with chemotherapy.  A week later my mother found him on the bedroom floor, having collapsed and passed away in the night.

From being diagnosed with diabetes to his passing away was less than four weeks.  I didn’t even get the chance to come to terms with the fact that I had only six months with him before even that was snatched away a week later.

My mother and father would have celebrated their 40^th wedding anniversary in October and he would have been 60 years old in December.  Two landmarks in life that I’m devastated he won’t enjoy.

My father was proud of my achievements and he was responsible for practical side of my abilities.  As a child I was always encouraged to help him with DIY projects and he was always supportive and helpful.  This helped me to learn a flexible, practical approach to life and the obstacles it puts in your path.  As soon as I became interested in IT he also became involved since he loved gadgets.

I’m glad he saw me become a Financial Director and I know that he was proud of me.  I miss him daily and everyone that knew him does too.  I didn’t really get the chance to tell him how much he meant to me.  If you can avoid it, don’t make the same mistake.