A Mind Lost

I don’t really post personal stuff on here as I’m very private, but I’m feeling unusually low today and need to unload a little. This post may even get deleted later if I change my mind.  Several things are weighing on me just lately:

• Problems developing between my fiancee and myself.  Nothing insurmountable because we love each other, but there is tension which we need to overcome.
• A year of trying to prevent a shop/off-license opening next door to my home.  Loads of stress over parking, noise, litter etc as well as the £40k+ and 3.5 years hard work we spent improving the place being wiped out by potentially having an off-license next door.  Lots of opposition locally and having done all the research and organised letters/petitions, I have a belief it can be beaten but I feel it’s all resting on my shoulders.
• Almost two years now of dragging two companies through this recession with poor cashflow and only small signs of improvement.  The markets this week would have you thinking the world was about to end!  Our Chinese supplier is again trying to steal customers direct.
• This morning (it started yesterday but has escalated today), we have petty squabbles between a couple of shop-floor workers over a fan of all things.  It’s not even a company-supplied fan but one of the people wants to make an issue of it and is demanding a mediation meeting. I’m sick of these childish antics.  It’s like a playground and we’re supposed to play teacher.  I’m not in the ****ing mood! She’s even trying to make it a race issue FFS!

Am I feeling sorry for myself?  Probably. Am I justified in feeling sorry for myself?  Probably not.  After all, I have a great life compared to most.  I live in a nice home with a woman I adore and have a decent, if frustrating job to pay for it all so I feel very fortunate.  I just feel I want some of this stuff to be over so life can be a little lighter.

That’s my bleating over with.